Post-Eclipse Reflection

But in order to keep from continuously sinking we need to start aiming higher and reach for a branch — some imagined leverage we can hold on to of the reality we want to be living. We need to start breathing life into the life we want.

This Eclipse was the trippiest thing I have ever experienced. It felt like all the energies were shedding and revving at the same time and it left me quite disoriented.

In fact, the weeks leading up to and after the Eclipse have been just as daunting - so much of the same old patterns, triggers, and emotions kept coming back to rear their many heads, much like the Hydra of mythology, to bring me back to my knees. And to be honest I am still integrating a lot of these aspects.

I was hesitant to come on here and share because of that feeling of being “unfinished” but the desire to share still persisted so here we are.

Through all of this upheaval, I felt the call to lean ever deeper into spiritual practice.

For me this is meditation and contemplation.

Contemplation and reflection of the self I am trying to grow out of, while at the same time, meditation and embodiment of the self I am working to manifest.

Up until now I have been focusing primarily on the contemplation of the self I am wanting to change. The issue with this is it almost always takes the form of self-judgement, feelings of lack, and unworthiness.

During this time I started to watch more of Dr. Joe Dispenza’s work and it finally hit me that by just focusing on contemplation or self-reflection alone, I wasn’t going to make the changes I wanted to see in myself.

I needed to start becoming someone else. Someone aligned with the values I wanted to express.

So through the help of his work, I have been also focusing on embodying the person I want to be and taking on that form in real time. I don’t want to share too much of what that means for me (more to come there) but by focused imagination and meditation on a future I am in love with, I am just starting to see what is possible for me.

I think this observation is aligned with the concept of getting stuck in shadow work. We can get caught up in our psychology and the stories we tell ourselves of why we are the way we are all the while thinking that once we recognize something in our past that confirms our circumstance then that will be the catalyst to changing our current experience.

Unfortunately this can be like quicksand. We do more thinking, we sink a little more into the multitude of confirmations of why things are the way they are.

But in order to keep from continuously sinking we need to start aiming higher and reach for a branch — some imagined leverage we can hold on to of the reality we want to be living. We need to start breathing life into the life we want.

Hope this helps someone out there. Talk soon!